I feel so Gay!

I’m so sick and tired of having to walk around all alone and I feel really miserable and sober because I have no one to talk to and I don’t have any permanent friends. I’ve stopped hurting myself now, since I’ve become wiser and better over my past encounters.

But yeah… I’m so lonely.

I can’t live without someone with me, I can survive without one, but I just can’t simply live without one. Then I remember I have class later in the evening and it f*cking sucks. I’d be dead by then… all I can think of meeting later is Allan, a gay friend of mine, which is not a bad thing.

I truly support this kind of topic on which a male person would seek the companionship of someone in the same sex than someone in the opposite sex. Not only will they be happy in the path on which someone with their similarities and thoughts are in their grasp, but it also leaves more women, for the rest of us. (I’m bisexual.) But now, I prefer a male companion, (Which is apparently too busy for me.) and what is very delightful about Allan is that, he has a boyfriend! Which is way cuter in my part.

It’s not bad to see things differently than others, they say it’s a disgrace because you are countering what God has given you and the role of what you should be doing with your gender! But no, it’s not, it’s not a disgrace, because there is a saying: 

‘Everything has a purpose.’ 

And the purpose of this saying is to evaluate and guide us that we have roles and mission in life on which we are not aware of yet. Why would God give you the consciousness to distinguish what you truly want to be if He did not give you a good apparent reason why you think differently in the gender category? Everything has a reason.

It’s okay to be gay, bisexual, lesbian or whatever, as long as what you are trying to achieve with it is right. Love has no boundaries nor does it have any rules. Have you ever gone to the bookstore and saw a Rule book about Love? (“Love: The Do’s and Don’ts.” No such thing, believe me.) No! That’s exactly my point.

If God had unconditional love for us, then why would He see us as monsters if He himself created us? We are His children and He is not ashamed of us. Especially if He thinks His son is gay, or His daughter is lesbian. All he wants for us is to be happy and our happiness is the road for us to attain a better life on which we have fulfilled His mission for us. I think Allan is awesome because he’s kind and funny, he’s a bit shy but that’s okay. He’s not ashamed to tell who he is and I am not shunning him for that because I enjoy his company!

I think the church should swallow for having to limit the conditions of love and to whom you should give it. We are our own people and we have every right to do what we want, most definitely in the passion we seek to be with someone who ever and whatever the circumstances, and as long as it is innocent and pure.

It’s just a shame and very sad how people put labels on people when we’re all the same. We may all look different, but we are still human beings, and having to insult or hurt other people for being who they beautifully are is just… just sad. Really sad. 

We have hearts; we have feelings, and having to tell people the one flaw they have when they themselves know it just hurts. It just shows how blunt and hollow you think for judging people’s true selves by the things that make them different.